One thing that I have come to realize as I have looked over these past 7 months is that before Covid-19, my life was incredibly full. It was full of good intentions and a lot of meetings that didn’t seem to be for any other reason than to make me feel important. I came to realize that I needed to say “no” to opportunities, meetings and activities of all kinds. On the surface there was nothing wrong with what I was doing, but as I began evaluating my life, I saw that the people and places I was needing to invest my time in were getting overlooked and pushed aside.
As I began to say “no” and finish up commitments, I started to have more life and joy again. I realized that I didn’t need to run myself ragged so that I could hopefully eventually “do what I want in the future”. I began to understand that I needed to focus on the now and be present for those in my life.
It’s been a paradigm shifting 7 month journey, but it has been one that was needed. I believe that what would have taken me 2-3 years to learn and put into practice was sped up because I was faced with hard truths and made the needed changes. I would never wish a pandemic on anyone or any community, but I am choosing to make the most of this situation. I am choosing to slow down and dig into where I have been planted. I have been focusing more on my family, coworkers, and neighbors, and as I have done this it has been life giving.
In focusing on who is next to me and the opportunities I have today, I have been able to build stronger relationships and get opportunities that always seemed to elude me in the past. I have learned that to have an impact on the community you are a part of, it is about more than voting, talking or marching, but taking consistent action over time. I am far from perfect and don’t have many answers, but one thing I do know is that when we slow down and take root where we are, we start to have the impact we really long for. My life… it’s pretty ordinary, and it’s just the way I want it.